One Versus Two Equals Three

As I have mentioned some time ago, I am an Indonesian (never forget the half-Asgardian guys, my daddy is Thor). Back on July 9th 2014 we had an election for the next president of Indonesia. There were 2 candidates running to be the president and vice president. Candidate number one was Prabowo Subianto and Hatta Rajasa whilst the candidate number two was Joko Widodo and Jusuf Kalla. 

Candidate number 1

Candidate number 2

If you live in Indonesia it would be a lie if you say that you can't feel a 'war' happen BECAUSE SOMETHING LIKE A WAR HAPPENED. Well not literally though. The supporters of Prabowo and Jokowi were showing their excitement and support for their politic idols. 

I could definitely see how Jokowi supporters wouldn't stop tweeting about how awesome Jokowi is and how terrible Prabowo is. However Prabowo's supporters didn't give the same reaction. They give their support for Prabowo, obviously, but I hardly saw any of them making fun of Jokowi.

I have an opinion about this election. Well actually I have tons of opinions about this but let's just see how many of my opinions actually make it to this post.

Both parties have their strength and weakness of course. Both Jokowi and Jusuf Kalla own countless of noble achievements. Jokowi, a man from Solo, has improved his hometown into a better place when he became the mayor of Solo. Jusuf Kalla helped a lot of Indonesian citizens during the tsunami back in 2006. Jusuf Kalla has done so many I didn't even know where to begin so I'm just gonna leave it at: He's a great man.

But let's not forget about Prabowo. There is no doubt that he is a powerful man. Oh very powerful. I even heard that even the toughest country's president is afraid of him. I don't know. A lot of people seemed to despise him THAT much. Some people may actually forget that he also had done so many noble things for Indonesia.

What I like about Prabowo is that he is a loyal citizen. His loyalty for Indonesia is without a doubt authentic. However to be honest, I do not like the people behind him. Also, I feel reaaaaaally bad for Prabowo. All he wants is to give the best for his country but it seems like his surroundings are either his haters or people who pretend to support him just because they want to be a part of the government. 

After the election that was held on July 9th, we had to wait until July 22nd to get the official result from KPU (Komisi Pemilihan Umum aka the committee who always take care of the voting and all that jazz). Between July 9th and July 22nd, televisions couldn't shut up about the election. It's basically all they talk about besides the plane crash of Malaysian Airlines MH17 (may God bless the victims' souls and their families) and the Gaza bombing (may God bless their souls as well).

Anyway, the media kept yapping about the election. Even some TV channels were biased towards a certain candidate. 

I did make a decision on July 9th. I chose a candidate that I wouldn't mention here. I didn't really tell anyone about it. I just think, "Why should I tell anyone about it anyway?" It is my choice and I had a deliberation with my brain even until the election paper was already in front of me. Until now I'm still not quite satisfied with my choice because I wish I could have voted for both because I do like both parties.

If Jokowi and Prabowo were in the same party, I would definitely voted for that one. 

I have so many things to say here but it would be very long so I decided to stop here. 

Since Jokowi and Jusuf Kalla were declared winners, I would like to say congratulations. I truly hope they can improve Indonesia for this next 5 years.

Disappointment

Before any of you judge me with any comments or whatever, I just want to emphasise that I'm a human (actually, half-Asgardian) and I have feelings. Some of you who actually take the time to read this post might think I'm an ungrateful girl and the next 10 year version of me might even think I'm being ungrateful, but I really need to express a feeling right now; disappointment. Oh and sad too.

Actually these feelings has left my heart yesterday night. In fact, right now I'm currently listening to Michael Jackson's Love Never Felt So Good featuring Justin Timberlake. A song never sound so good omG. 

But anyway, yeah. I was very disappointed and sad. You see I applied for university in several state universities. I applied through SNMPTN, SBMPTN, and SIMAK for University of Indonesia. I studied really hard for the tests except SNMPTN since it's direct admission.

I joined the intensive class for these tests preparation for like one and a half month. Full time! From 1 PM to 5 PM. I even studied at home, again, because I really need to master it. Okay, maybe not as hard as some other students and I do take a lot of breaks as well but it's not like I didn't study at all! 

I always came to class. Maybe not 100% attendance but I dare to say that my attendance is 90%. My try outs score didn't turn out to be that bad! I was a science student during high school (I still kind of regret the fact that I chose science pathway but the past is the past) thus always being in the top 10 for social science is not bad at all. Believe me, I am grateful for that.

However it turned out that I didn't pass the tests. Any of the three I just mentioned. Since I still wanted to go to state universities, I went to Malang and Surabaya with my dad. I signed up for 2 other state universities.

This time I didn't study as hard as I did for the previous tests, but I still study a little bit. During the test, I actually felt like I nailed it. I thought maybe I had a chance. However God has another plan for me. 

I was so disappointed because some of my friends who didn't even study as hard as I did, passed the tests. What I also hate is that some people kept trying to cheer me up by being wise and said, "Don't be sad! God has the best plan for you!" 

Yes, I know that God will always have the plans for me. Always. But the more you say 'Don't be sad', the more I get sad. I really really want to study in state university. I want to know how it feels like to go to a state institution since I'm always a private school girl. 

I also want to make my parents proud. Many of my parents' nieces and nephews went and still go to state universities. I want to make them proud by getting in to state universities as well. Apparently God has a better plan for me in a private university.

Now I have completely moved on from it. I am happy to say that I am a private university's student. I am very proud to say that I am a university student. I am also proud to say that I am a student at Pelita Harapan University. I thank them for accepting me. I hope I will make great memories there!

And I thank my parents for not demanding too much from me. I'm glad that they are very supportive and wherever I go they seem to be okay with it.

:)

P.S. The announcement for SBMPTN was exactly on my 18th birthday so please understand how sad I was.