The 2 Billion Rupiah Dream

High school is about to end and I can't be any happier. Well, hopefully, I will be graduating from high school next year which is in 2014. Everyone, like literally everyone, asks me where do I want to continue my study a.k.a "Where do you wanna go for college?"

And that's when the 2 billion rupiah question comes and that's when the roller coaster of feelings come. 

I have a very deep interest in English especially Creative Writing. I'm not trying to brag about anything but I do think that I deserve to be confident in at least one thing and that is I'm pretty confident in my writing skills.

When people ask me what do I want to study, it's simple. I want to study English Literature. However, I have a very personal interest in Creative Writing. No universities in Indonesia provide a specific course or major on Creative Writing and I know this one amazing university who has that. 

University of Birmingham

I use all bold, italic, and underline in purpose to emphasise my feelings for this university. I mean I can't I need a moment. 

Okay I'm back. To be honest, my way in finding out about this university is through Gita Gutawa. Yes, her. The daughter of Erwin Gutawa who both happen to be great musicians of Indonesia. They're two of our nation's prides.

I find out that University of Birmingham provides English with Creative Writing a.k.a MY DREAM COURSE! I have searched all of the informations I can get especially the budget and just like the title of this post, it costs roughly 2 billion rupiah. Roughly.

Well yeah let's be honest I don't have that much of money. My mother totally supports my dream in aiming high and all but she doesn't have that much of money as well. And this is the part where the roller coaster of feelings happen. Heart broken and desperate. 

Maybe all of you who happen to pass by this blog and read this post may say, "Get a scholarship!" Let me tell you something. It is not that easy since in order to enrol here, Indonesian students must take a foundation year since the education system in UK and Indonesia aren't balance. Just like a chemistry equation. Well, most of them if you haven't balance them.

And talking about the foundation year, they don't provide scholarships. They provide bursaries which means fee reduction, however not scholarships. This saddens me a lot since I feel like I don't have any hope in order to achieve this dream.

Studying the course that's not available in Indonesia is not the only reason why I wanna study here. I love UK and being able to live there means I can get new opportunities and experiences that I might not be able to get in my country. Whatever the opportunities or experiences are, they're still something new.

But still. The 2 billion rupiah thing. 

I wish one day God decides to let money fall from the sky, like rain but not in the form of water but money, then I can take as much as I need to get there. I feel like in the end of the day, the wealthy people are the ones who can get the best education while the not-so-wealthy ones are, well.

I'm so sorry if I seem judgmental, ungrateful, and pessimistic but I just feel like getting this off my chest. I have a Physics Test Formative and a Chemistry retest tomorrow but I decide to write this particular post first. I just need to get it off somehow.

To be honest, I envy all the kids who are lucky enough to be able to afford education this expensive. I know envy is one of the seven deadly sins but I'm just an ordinary human.